I wish I could change of the name of this blog. I would add something to do with the job I do now. I think I was still 17 when I opened it. I wish I had kept track of it. I'm 21 now, and so much has changed in my life.
I've been reading a lot of things about military wives just now. It's been making me sad. My boyfriend and I have the struggle of both being active duty, and it makes it hard to see each other. It's not too bad right now, we see each other about every 4ish months for about 2 weeks. It's more then some people but less then others. I love him so much, but he is going to be the one who becomes a military spouse. His contract is up in April, but I am reenlisting. I love the military I can't help it. I love everything about it, I love what I do, I love the culture, and I love being a part of something bigger. He wants to get out and go to college. I'm trying to go to Japan next, and no matter how you slice it that's far from America. We haven't found a practical way to be together. We're not in a hurry to get married. I'll be there for about 3 years if I go. And I really want to go. I'll be on a ship and gone a lot. It's hard to think that I might make him a military spouse. Waiting for me all the time, wishing I was home to be there for him. It's hard for him to understand. We joined the military for different reasons. He wanted the college money, but I joined to serve my country. He joined to do the minimum and get out after 4 years, but I joined to make it a career. I never thought of kids or marriage. 4 years after I joined I am thinking about marriage, but not kids. I'm worried that that might be a problem later. It's not something I'm wanting to think about just yet.
I love this man very much. That's why I made my profile picture a picture of him. Anytime I am able to change the picture on something; laptop, phone, etc., I usually make it a picture of him. I miss him so much sometimes it hurts. Most people don't take our relationship very seriously because we are long distance, and we're young. (I'm 21 he's 23). But we have managed to stay completely faithful, and completely in love. I never question his actions, his friends, if I don't hear from him.... I never think he is doing anything he shouldn't be doing. And the same from him. I am a female in the military. My base is 9% female, so most of my friends are men. But he never questions. He trusts me, he loves me, and I never question his intentions. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
And when people don't take my relationship seriously, it's incredibly frustrating. Long distance is hard enough without everyone doubting you. I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and I think he feels that way too. We have enough working against us with the distance, the military, the times zones, the work schedules. It's hard enough to have a good relationship with that. He lives in South Korea right now, about an hour West of Pusan. As I stated, I live in Bahrain. It's 6 time zones, we both have crazy schedules. He's getting ready for work right about now I think actually. He works nights, and I work days. Which is pretty inconvenient to my sleep schedule, but it's worth it. Sometimes I stay up pretty late, sometimes more then he does, but he's trying more.
I am probably going to blog so much over the next few days. He just left 2 days ago. I hate that we count down like crazy for 4 months, and then the 2 weeks flies by and we go right back to counting down. I live in a Muslim country too, so we couldn't kiss in the airport. It's a small airport though, so we waited in the car until his boarding time and then hugged and snuck the quickest kiss in. We didn't want any hassle. PDA is not allowed in Muslim countries, in case you don't know. Now here I am, back to counting down. To a moment more then worth it. Next time I see him it will be for the Navy Ball. I am so excited for that. He will get to wear his Cracker Jacks, and since I am going on leave to another command's Ball, I don't have to wear my uniform and can wear a dress since I will be escorted by a military man. Today is day one of getting into shape for this dress! I just have to decide on a dress. I have a bit of a tummy, so I have to wait to pick a dress until I see what's going to fit my body better. I'm a cross between curvy and pear, so it can be hard. I'm about 5'5" and 156 right now. I WAS 151, but I have what I call "home cooked curves" right now from my Boyfriend cooking for me.
Anyway, time to watch Mad Men.
I've been reading a lot of things about military wives just now. It's been making me sad. My boyfriend and I have the struggle of both being active duty, and it makes it hard to see each other. It's not too bad right now, we see each other about every 4ish months for about 2 weeks. It's more then some people but less then others. I love him so much, but he is going to be the one who becomes a military spouse. His contract is up in April, but I am reenlisting. I love the military I can't help it. I love everything about it, I love what I do, I love the culture, and I love being a part of something bigger. He wants to get out and go to college. I'm trying to go to Japan next, and no matter how you slice it that's far from America. We haven't found a practical way to be together. We're not in a hurry to get married. I'll be there for about 3 years if I go. And I really want to go. I'll be on a ship and gone a lot. It's hard to think that I might make him a military spouse. Waiting for me all the time, wishing I was home to be there for him. It's hard for him to understand. We joined the military for different reasons. He wanted the college money, but I joined to serve my country. He joined to do the minimum and get out after 4 years, but I joined to make it a career. I never thought of kids or marriage. 4 years after I joined I am thinking about marriage, but not kids. I'm worried that that might be a problem later. It's not something I'm wanting to think about just yet.
I love this man very much. That's why I made my profile picture a picture of him. Anytime I am able to change the picture on something; laptop, phone, etc., I usually make it a picture of him. I miss him so much sometimes it hurts. Most people don't take our relationship very seriously because we are long distance, and we're young. (I'm 21 he's 23). But we have managed to stay completely faithful, and completely in love. I never question his actions, his friends, if I don't hear from him.... I never think he is doing anything he shouldn't be doing. And the same from him. I am a female in the military. My base is 9% female, so most of my friends are men. But he never questions. He trusts me, he loves me, and I never question his intentions. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
And when people don't take my relationship seriously, it's incredibly frustrating. Long distance is hard enough without everyone doubting you. I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and I think he feels that way too. We have enough working against us with the distance, the military, the times zones, the work schedules. It's hard enough to have a good relationship with that. He lives in South Korea right now, about an hour West of Pusan. As I stated, I live in Bahrain. It's 6 time zones, we both have crazy schedules. He's getting ready for work right about now I think actually. He works nights, and I work days. Which is pretty inconvenient to my sleep schedule, but it's worth it. Sometimes I stay up pretty late, sometimes more then he does, but he's trying more.
I am probably going to blog so much over the next few days. He just left 2 days ago. I hate that we count down like crazy for 4 months, and then the 2 weeks flies by and we go right back to counting down. I live in a Muslim country too, so we couldn't kiss in the airport. It's a small airport though, so we waited in the car until his boarding time and then hugged and snuck the quickest kiss in. We didn't want any hassle. PDA is not allowed in Muslim countries, in case you don't know. Now here I am, back to counting down. To a moment more then worth it. Next time I see him it will be for the Navy Ball. I am so excited for that. He will get to wear his Cracker Jacks, and since I am going on leave to another command's Ball, I don't have to wear my uniform and can wear a dress since I will be escorted by a military man. Today is day one of getting into shape for this dress! I just have to decide on a dress. I have a bit of a tummy, so I have to wait to pick a dress until I see what's going to fit my body better. I'm a cross between curvy and pear, so it can be hard. I'm about 5'5" and 156 right now. I WAS 151, but I have what I call "home cooked curves" right now from my Boyfriend cooking for me.
Anyway, time to watch Mad Men.
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